Thursday, June 02, 2005

Mini update:


- mom took the cell phone away from me (so pls don't call unless urgent).. i can't dial out using the landline (anyone more than 6 miles from me, sorry)
- ivie & sheilla tease me about a security guard @ the hospital who kept mentioning that he has his own "pad"
- can't wait till.. matchmaker matchmaker, i'll find u a match
- nero has me doin a lil "secret project" usin my photoshop skills
- miss seein the chosen few.. got kinda upset that someone didn't stop by my house (for a miniscule second) even tho she was only a few houses away


Kyla lyrics & true GOSSIP

"just to hear his voice would bring
Happiness, inside of me
he has such a nice personality
He tells me things that are good
Makes me feel like how a woman should

but I'm just not too sure
if he's into me
but i'm definitely feelin' him"


our relationship began with e-mails then instant messaging and within a few months a couple of phone calls (yes, 2).. many a day's worth of procrastination ensued as a result of my excitement to just hear that melodic voice of urs (at least to my ears it is).. i knew that u were clearly a potential after reviewing my parents' reaction after meeting u.. "anak, so rare to find a respectful, spiritual, intelligent, charming and if i may add handsome boy".. however, knowing whether the feelings were mutual was the only blurred aspect of it all


"This night when you left me
I realized how much you mean to me
this night when you said goodbye
I never thought that I would cry"


1 yr ago, i came to give u a gift for ur bday.. but my heart so longed to give u more.. we met underneath the sheet of twinkling stars on top of the world up on a Mount.. driving down, my heart palpitated and i prayed to God u wouldn't hear it.. i couldn't help but glance at u (more like idle fascination) and each word that escaped ur lips became an object of envy for i surely wanted to embrace ur lips with my own.. i felt comfort so i dispelled the notion of running away.. after grabbin a few study materials from ur apt (also composing myself with a bit of courage), we headed back on the road.. i can't believe i was unraveling.. conversation continued but my mind was trying to organize the right words until all halted when my ears heard "i want to take a relationship to another level".. was it "A" relationship?or "OUR"? then my heart ceased to beat after u clarified that i was NOT ur choice.. i tried to maintain my composure as we said our goodbye's at the library with me pushing u far far away.. that night i cried


"There was an empty void inside
my heart
I tried to fill the space with anything
But left it in the dark
Then a blessing came in the form of you
Now I know that God has smiled on me
too"


although our status is not how i envisioned it would be, u still filled that void with the love and protection of a guardian.. u are my blessing.. i thank God that he took away my loneliness, even for just a little while, and gave me a gift (you) pakaged with sensibility, an enormous heart, and all the works!

*[[ The magic within... ]]*
|2:58 PM|


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